Yeah.

[Whitey Ford]

Anyone here ever have their heart broken? How about your heart was broken because the woman you loved left you because you treated her wrong? And even though you've come to terms with you being a piece of shit but your taking every step possible to make things better, they can write you off in an instant and not believe a word you say? Ever feel that?

I'm tired of pretending to be a nice guy. I'm broken and depressed and I really don't have a use anymore. SO. If I happen to dissapear for a while, just go along with the foolish idea that I've grown up and moved on to better things. This is far more serious than having fun, my entire life is in shambles and after two months of pretending I'd be ok, I'm starting to man up and admit that it probably never will be. Most of you still in this game are close friends to me. I'm not fucking around. I'm not making threats and I'm not looking for pity. I always said that if I had to leave, I'd say goodbye to you guys too, believe it or not. So if I'm not around tomorrow, thats what I'm doing.

I'm saying goodbye.

[Ryan Green]

i am not sur what to say, except i hope that this is some kind of gag, but im pretty certain it isnt.

Whitey, if you do log on here again please realise there are people that might be able to help, well help in as much as listne/read through the shit that your dealing with and maybe offer some words of advise or just friendship.

sorry to hear the words you've written, please just talk to someone and do not do anything in the heat of the moment.

X

[AWA CEO: Mr. Timothy Draven]

I agree with Green. Trust me Whitey, I've been through more shit in relationships that I can explain. I've been cheated on more times that I can count. I went through a very violent/physical relationship with Kristin, and I refused to lay my hands on a woman. This was my fiancee bro. I bought a house with her. I had an entire life with her. We had a lot of plans. I was punched in my face repeatedly. I was kicked multiple times. I was bitten. Dug. Had different house hold items thrown at me. She tried to smash out my windows. She threw my clothes out in the yard. She tried to slice my tires. Brother, I went through so much shit with that girl, and I never layed a finger on her because I don't think it's right to hit a woman. My heart was broken bro. I'll be straight up and honest with you, I felt like life was over. I didn't give a shit. My entire world came crashing down, and I had no idea where I was going to go. She kept the house. She kept the newer car we got. She kept most of the shit we had together. Fuck dude, she even kept my Black Lab. I went through a serious dark place after that happened. I was depressed. I was feeling what you're feeling right now.

And then I forced myself to snap out of it. Was she worth taking my life? FUCK NO. NO ONE is worth that. No situation is worth you taking your life. I realized that she had stripped all my posessions . . . but she also stripped me of ME . . . I wasn't even myself anymore. I looked in the mirror and told myself that she wasn't winning this battle. She always felt like she had won all these battles because I didn't hit her back. I didn't throw shit back at her. So she always felt like she had the upper hand. I refused to let her win the ultimate battle.

I know you're hurting brother, but trust me, it's not worth it. SNAP THE FUCK OUT IF IT DUSTIN . . . YOUR LIFE IS WORTH MORE! Figure your shit out, get your head straight . . . trust me, I know you can do it . . . and then take some time to be yourself. Take some time to find out who YOU REALLY ARE . . . I did that . . . I limited who I spent time with . . . I surrounded myself with positive people . . . I cut back on drinking (drinking seemed to make me more depressed) . . . and I just figured out what was best for ME . . . I did some serious soul searching brother, and honestly, I am more alive than I've ever been. I got together with a girl that was a great friend . . . we're super happy together . . . shes not crazy . . . she respects me . . . she treats me well . . . we laugh all the time together . . . my family tells me that I'm more full of life right now than I've ever been before . . . I'm telling ya brother, take some time to figure yourself out . . . and things will turn around. Make smart choices Dustin. What can it hurt to try? Ask yourself that . . . if you end it, thats it, it's over . . . but what's it hurt to take my advice and try this? Honestly brother . . . please take this message to heart and know that I'm so passionate about it because I care about ya brother and because I've been there . . . I've got faith in ya.

[Whitey Ford]

I've given all that advice before, but its a lot different to follow it myself. I'll be ok for a couple days at a time, then I know I have two choices. I can make a call, say hello and express that I know what a shitbag I was. That either ends in a quiet conversation where I remember what I lost, or another argument. Choice number two is I can not call her, but eventually give in because I figure the more time I spend not talking to her, the further away she's getting.

I know what I have to do, I just keep going through manic spells. Then, an hour or so later, I feel better, like now. i don't know what the fuck is going on.

[SLAM II]

I love you Dustin, don't know what I can say to help but I love you bro and I'm here for you man.

[Whitey Ford]

I'm fine. I'm not joking, I think I'm battling temporary insanity.

["The Aussie Icon" Croc]

Stop having sex with men

['The Solution' Jake Andrews]

So... what you're saying is that I WIN!? FUCK YOU WHITEY! HAHAHAHAHA I WIN BITCH! I'm fucking here and you're fucking leaving!


Bitch....





















In all seriousness though....grab your balls, be who you are and fuck everyone who doesn't like it. What's the point of life if you can't push the madness?!